There are two things that are just inherent to being a Mom - guilt and anxiety. Who else's Mama Anxiety is on the rise today? I hardly watch the news (too depressing) but clearly the news is so great I couldn't help but hear it on the radio: deadliest attack for police officers since 9/11.
You guys - my anxiety is on the rise. If I sit too long and think about it, my heart beats a little faster, I feel a little faint and I find it hard to breathe.
When I first found out I was pregnant - I cried. I was afraid for the pain of childbirth, I was afraid for the lifelong commitment to my husband (ie - if we ever divorced, we were inextricably united FOREVER) and I was scared of the state of the world in which I was bringing a tiny human into the mix.
Did I get over those things? Mostly. And there are many days when I don't think about any of them. Today is not one of those days. Today, I am a teeny, tiny bit afraid for when my children are the police officers or the protestors or any grown-ups for that matter.
But here's the thing - I HAVE FAITH. In you.
You see - I don't really have faith in the grown-ups around me. I have faith in some, but the majority? No. So I place my faith in kids - not in the next generation (those are the 20 somethings) or the one after that (teenagers) - but the really little kids (ages 13 or less) and with those kids - the rest of my faith is placed in Moms. Because Moms are at the forefront of raising that generation that just might make the type of sadness/disgust/violence that exists today non-existent.
I have a belief that people who use guns to harm other people, outside of those who have jobs in that field (ie the military), have a sincere lack of love. Somewhere along the way, they missed the opportunity to feel that deep satisfaction and happiness that comes with pure love - the kind you find in a parent, the kind you find in your family and/or the kind you find in friendships. If you can LOVE other people like that, how or why would you harm them?
So instead of thinking about my anxiety today, I am thinking about love. I am thinking about the get-together we can organize or host so my children and others can learn to love each other. I am thinking about something we can do to help someone else today so that someone who is missing that love can feel it and also love others. I am thinking Moms are the most underestimated women in America with the only (real) power to change the future and I'm hoping dear Mamas, you don't let your anxiety get the best of you today either and you do the same. Leave the laundry. Order a pizza. Skip a shower. Teach your children to carry up the neighbor's trash can. Have them call some grandparents today. Smile at people who look different than you and say, "Hi." Let's raise better humans.
My name is Elena aka The Breastfeeding Stylist and the creator of Mama's MilkBox and Carmen.
We have one mission here at Mama's MilkBox: help Moms find their "old" fabulous selves in their new normal.